I am convinced that to reach the light we have to emerge from the darkness. It is when everything around you closes in and seem to strangle your surroundings. I found to be looking for "something else" "somewhere else", a place with less suffering. I have also experienced that fear paralyzed me to get out. Fear of almost everything. This has also happened to me with my paintings. I have been in cycles where I do not get anywhere, I keep doing the same mistakes, I get my self totally blocked. It is when I have been in that hole that I think 'there must be something else somewhere for me" And parting from that desperate situation I have searched for something different, to have different results. I have started to look INSIDE ME, where everything exists. The fear, but also the power.
I started reading The Power is Within You, Louise Hay. It was there where I discover that what I was looking for outside, existed in me and only in me. I could get out of darkness. psychological and creative darkness, This was a very simple, basic book, but it contents were powerful an convincing. This was about the start of taking responsibility for my creativity, and above all I started the searching of my own soul.
This was about five years ago, and this concept still prevails in me
A PAINTER SHOULD BEGIN EVERY CANVAS WITH A WASH OF BLACK, BECAUSE ALL THINGS IN NATURE ARE DARK EXCEPT WHERE EXPOSED BY THE LIGHT
Leonardo Da Vinci
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